I was going to write about something else, but felt compelled to share this. It’s Saturday afternoon, I just came back from an ice cream run with the kiddies and I just said my afternoon prayers. As I sat in my closet (where I pray) and talked to God about how I thank him for helping me acknowledge my errors, I also touched on something else.
There was a point in my life a few months ago where I was unhappy with where I was. I have this good job, I am helping other parents, I have my own apartment, a brand new vehicle, I work from home. I mean I was not satisfied. This is coming from a woman who moved from NYC a year ago with her two boys and $400 in her pocket. A year ago I was sharing a two bedroom apartment with my brother. A year ago I slept on the bottom bunk futon pull out with my son. A year ago I road the train to and from work. A year ago the things I have right now we’re things I prayed for, and I was still not satisfied. But I never stopped to really think about what it was that I was missing. I thought, perhaps if I buy a video camera, and set it up in my home, I can record myself and see how I am from a different lens. I was being greedy and I need to be able to change that with a switch. Now I say greedy, because if you are not in the mindset of gratefulness, you don’t account for the things that you have. I allowed my circumstances to get the best of me, and since my children are the only ones around, my way of communicating wasn’t at its best. I said, you know what God, if I could only program my mind to step outside of myself and see how I react the environment around me, perhaps the will to want to change will be greater. Then, I said wait, that is self awareness. And since I am not buying a camera anytime soon, I will work on doing just that. Change the way I think, to change the way I see things.
I am sure there are some things you may not be thrilled about yourself. Whether it be your weight, how you act around people, your finances, or where you are presently career wise. The power of change is there. It can be done, it is attainable. It’s just at your paste. All you have to do is sit down and truly ask yourself. Some of these questions.
- What do I want to change?
- If I did change this, how will this benefit me?
- Am I trying to be like someone else, or uniquely myself?
- What are things that you don’t like in others?
- Are those same things perfect in your world?
- Keep in mind that if it isn’t, that is why you don’t like it others
So with that said, I hope you take the time out to reflect on your life as a whole, and your awareness. Are you truly aware of you?
Until next time be safe, and share. Have a great weekend! #momlife #howisinglemomit #awareness